When I am Weak

It’s been a difficult week.  A few weeks ago I spoke with a national retailer who said they were interested in an audit engagement.  I was excited that God was finally going to get my business going again.  This past Monday, they told me they were unable to proceed because their new private ownership required them to use a firm that they owned.  I learned of this just before I headed out to a school fund raising event.  I have to say, I was in no mood to attend a fund raiser banquet that night.

The past few days I’ve struggled with the thought, “Does God really even care?”  I know deep in my soul that He does, but my anger and frustration were seeping through.  I continued my daily Bible reading and tried to pray, but didn’t have much to say to God.  I didn’t know WHAT to say to God.

This morning, before I started my search for new prospects, I surrendered to God again.  I asked God to fill me with His spirit, then I went through the monuments in my life where I’ve clearly seen God’s provision.  He assured me that He is faithful, and that I need to persevere.

Just a few minutes ago, I was looking through my list of “blogs to write” and saw a scripture reference that I had jotted down recently.  It was II Corinthians 12:9-10 which says, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamites.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – ESV

Sometimes my faith is weak.  Sometimes I’m weak in character and fortitude.  But thanks be to Christ for the strength He gives to me, for when I am weak, then I am strong!